Well, I tend to bottle shit in and then comes the anger built on emotions so figured I would vent a little here to get some shit out cause I def. don’t do it around people I know, men don’t cry! Right/!?!?!
My wife and I lost our son, Kolby, last week. We just got out of the hospital the other day and she delivered a stillborn, 20 weeks in. We already got sonograms of him, found out he was a boy, picked out a name, bought him his first lil outfit and went in last Fri for a reg checkup and we thought blood work.
Sadly, they couldn’t find a heart beat and figured it was a cord issue. After delivery, he had no deformities, no obvious reasons for blood flow to stop pumping his heart. We decided to run a genetics test just in case to find out wtf happened. Wife and I are devistated and did not expect this. So many people around her in her family are having babies around the same time as we were(oct) and it’s just killing us.
I went and paid for a cremation service, picked out a nice heart urn with engraving on it and a nice sterling silver heart necklace with foot prints for my wife to wear that also holds a lil bit of his cremains. Spent a lot of money on my boy and figured he deserves it!!
What makes this very difficult is we were suppose to have a girl around 2 years ago and her placenta broke and caused a miscarriage. She had a D & C then but this time she had to be induced and do a full delivery which was pretty fucking awful, hope no one on here has to go thru this fucking bullshit, real talk!
Just on my mind a lot today because I’m waiting on the jewelry to arrive today via Express and then have to head back to the funeral home and drop it off and hopefully everything will be ready to bring him back to us.
I am so sorry for your loss.
It feels good to be running from the devil
Another breath and I'm up another level
It feels good to be up above the clouds
It feels good for the first time in a long time now
I am so sorry for your loss.
Thanks, I appreciate it.
Man I can only image what you two are going through, I am so very sorry for your lost. I hope your genetics test gives you guys some sort of closure. Good Vibes sent to both of you.
I am very sorry. I have no advice. Just not to be I guess.
Sorry to hear man, if you need to talk to anyone I’m here. I just recently found my daughter had one of her kidneys fail. We would have never guessed. Six months old she is. We thought she was up all night crying due to teething or a possible ear infection. I know its nowhere near as extreme but if you need someone to talk to who is also dealing with some troubles I’d be glad to chat for a while. Keep your head up though man only way from here is up
Thanks guys, really appreciate it. I got the jewelry in and got everything all done. =/
Both of them have my boys cremains in them so when my wife is missing him really bad, she can have him by her heart anytime.
Im so sorry for your loss bro. I cant even imagine going through that. My girl had a miscarriage about 3 years ago,so i know it’s not easy, but still not the magnitude you’re going through. That is a beautiful necklace you got for your little man!! If you need an ear to chew, I’m here for you…
Abduction means the end for me, a million years of misery…
Sorry for your loss… there simply aren’t words enough to make this right. It sucks, and it’s terribly unfair. If there’s anything we can do, let us know.
Brother i’m sorry to hear, i really am. I’m not really sure what to say FSU… you’re a good dude, I wish you and your wife and kids all the best. I’m very sorry for your loss.
Sorry for your loss FSU; people have told me of the pain of a stillborn child. Surely there are no words that take pain away, although there are words that may provide comfort. Please do not hesitate to contact me if you need a listening ear.
Sail and grow
Deep inside
The brave align
Green we stay
-Boss Keloid Lung Valley
I wish my words could soothe, so, so, so sorry to hear for your loss.
Anything I can do for you that’s humanly possible, LMK, even just another EAR, EYE or MIND to interpret and communicate this life to one another so that we may make it through…
RIP KOLBY RAY
Thats an awesome necklace bro, so sorry that yall had to go through this. i know weve had our differences on here before but if you ever need to talk im here for ya all the same, much love bro and sending good vibes and love to you and yours. Everybody take a toke in honor of Kolby!! :passing-joint:
"Fool me one time, shame on you. Fool me two times, cant put tha blame on you. Fool me three times, fuck tha peace signs, load the choppa and let it rain on you"
So sorry for your loss, sending good thoughts your way.
There are 2 kinds of justice in ‘Merika- One for the peeps and the sheeps-
And one for the creeps at the top of the heap……….
Thanks guys, I appreciate it. Gotta go back to work today and don’t feel like being around "peachy" people and asking where I been. I noticed I don’t cry and bottle my emotions and then it turns to anger and I’m pretty fucking angry lately and feel like I can easily snap on someone n that is what freaks me out, I haven’t had my own time to grieve with this yet. =/