Hey all my fellow spicers!
I was really happy to find this forum because it validated that I wasn’t the only one struggling with spice and that I wasn’t crazy in that I really really liked it, more so than MJ.
It was good while it lasted, especially the first and even the second generation spice products that skyrocketed my head into the clouds. I’ve been feeling like I had to kick the habit though because I’ve been spending so much money on it and it was affecting my ability to relate to people and I can’t even form an intimate relationship. So last weekend was the last time I did it, on Saturday when I smoked everything I had. The couple of days immediately after were somewhat hard in that I was depressed, but that’s normal since my brain was just balancing out and I wasn’t used to coping with normal daily stuff without the help of spice or at least the thought that I’d be able to end my day with a relaxing spice experience and some netflix/porn/youtube, etc.
I feel really good this weekend and haven’t even thought about smoking it. All the stuff out there now is so weak and I felt like I was making myself sick constantly having to re-up with the latest generation which is nowhere near the potency of the stuff which hooked me in a year ago +.
I’m honestly glad the new stuff is as weak as it is, or maybe that my tolerance has gotten so high, because it’s just not economically feasible nor is it good to my health, which I know it never was. If the stuff out there was as good as before, I’d probably still be hooked like crazy. It’s gotten so bad that even Mr. Kosh’s double XXX is not enough after one evening where I’m constantly re-upping the next day and the next until I’m out. It was hell going without or knowing I’d have to go without because I’d know whatever’s left will last only a couple hours.
To everyone out there: Do you! I’m not going to bash on anyone who wants to keep on spicing because it’s your life and I wouldn’t want anyone trying to make me feel bad either, but if you’re prepared to stop good for you too!
I got to save money and I was getting out of control. My will power is not as weak as I thought…I just didn’t give myself the credit I needed. I’ve decided I’ll still do MJ once my tolerance to cannabinoids is low, which I know will probably take forever because of what I’ve done. But once I’m back, I want to keep MJ as a special treat for 4 -5 times a year where I plan to buy an eighth or quarter to reward myself once every 3 – 4 months. I think that’s reasonable!
What are your experiences with going back to MJ? How long did it take some of you, those who’ve quit spicing, to get your tolerance back to MJ status?