So I recently moved from PA to this piece of shit town. Only because my babymama is going to school here on a grant and I want to be with my son. Feeling like a child because we have to stay with her old-fashioned parents, in the middle of fucking nowhere. I can’t even dicipline my son the way I want, they just let him do what he wants. For fear of them kicking me out, I have to just shutup and deal with it.
Can’t get a job, don’t have a ride, and don’t have a fuckin penny to my name. I thought it would be a good thing to be with my family but I still feel like a loser and a child. Only highlight is being around my son but I can’t even buy the things I want for him.
This towns job situation is ridiculous, I think I applied at just about every position I seen, even fucking Mcds. Feel like I’m being discriminated against because of my name. I feel like the only Rican in town. Most people want to get the hell out of here, not come here and start fresh. Gave up everything to come here, now I just want to disappear.
Probably done with blends because I can’t afford them anymore with no income. I only burned a few grams a week but it was a nice stress reliever. I just joined this forum and will probably end up leaving again.
Ready to just give up, its a lost cause, I will always be a loser, no matter how hard I try not to be. Don’t even know the point of this thread, I just wanted to put FUCK GALLUP in words…or basically Fuck Life
Stay strong. Life is stupid, you will make it through this.
dont need to leave this forum. we have plenty of people here that you can talk through your issues with. its good to get things off your chest. like mcgee said, stay strong.
Butcher some chickens!
Yeah, these are tough times for so many it just ain’t fair; but that just makes you in the same boat as sooo many people here today. You-we, are ALL of us children of the Universe. We are made from star-matter; we are born of, and one with Divinity Itself! So, not a loser, just a little lost, like so many. After all, we are all one. I hope things get brighter for you and yours, Silver Fox, hang in there, bro.
Just to put a cherry on top, my aunt is on her deathbed(cancer) and my mother just got out the hospital with bloodclots in her lungs(as well as numerous other health probs). And have a daughter due at the end of March. Fuck this place, just might end up going back to PA somehow, but my kids will be here. Lost and don’t know what the hell to do.
I feel you, man.
Kids end up being number one, so sometimes you have to sacrifice for them.
It sounds like you’ve been having to do so on a massive scale.
That really sucks, man. Hopefully stuff starts looking up for you soon. 🙁
"You can't buy happiness… but you can buy weed, which is pretty close."
Look for manual or farm labor until you can find another job. I know it’s not perfect, but it will keep you busy, and sometimes that’s enough.
I will be getting a care package to you soon. Keep yoyur spirits up, it never rains every day.
On a train back to PA with tears in my eyes… Gonna miss you lil buddy..
That really sucks, SilverFox.
Gotta be the toughest decision you’ve ever made.
"You can't buy happiness… but you can buy weed, which is pretty close."
Yeah it was but now I’m looking at it as a short hiatus. Basically had no other choice. Sucks I’m going to miss the birth of my daughter. Thanks for the kind words and advice guys. I’m usually not the one to put my business all out there.
Back in PA now and I could really use a drink.
Thanks for everything guys. Looks like its my time to go, its just not working out. When you’ve been a failure your entire life, there comes a time when you have to just throw in the towel. Just hope my kids will be taken care of.
Peace and love and thanks
I really hope you changed your mind.
You might be in a dark place right now, but there is always the future.
I’m sure you have a lot of great things to look forward to. Life WILL get better. Give it some time. Try not to dispair.
If not for yourself… live for your kids. Do everything you can to make sure THEIR lives are happier than yours seems to have been.
Everyone has something to live for. Suicidal thoughts are only permanent if you act on them.
"You can't buy happiness… but you can buy weed, which is pretty close."
So, back in PA?