I’m sure some of you have seen me talking about this in Shout Box so I finally will give some details.

Over a month ago I finally decided to quit blending, not expecting what was to come after…I had a horrible withdrawal constantly cold and sweating, puking my guts out daily, with full-blown almost non-stop panic attacks and anxiety for weeks when I stopped using Peaceful Minds cold turkey after a 2 oz in 3 week binge, the urge to re-up constantly just snuck up on me Never had  withdrawals from any blend even after daily use for months (X-Gen primarily and Pebz for the last 6 months or so) and I had been blending since 2010. Could take several days off no prob. Not with that shit though. It was as far worse for me than quitting my everyday Vodka habit a few years ago… plus feeling mentally dead and like I was dying physically Anyhow, I finally broke down went to the doctor,  and the asshole doc did not listen, I just want a couple of days worth of Valium or Xanax to get through the worst of it, he gives me Citralopam instead. I DID NOT want another fucking thing to withdraw from nor did I want a SSRI . After 6 days I pitched it. It made me even sicker and dragged out the withdrawal. Within a week  of stopping I felt back to normal. Wish I would have known, I would have just rode it out.

My withdrawal from Peaceful Minds lasted almost 3 hellacious weeks, very very slowly subsiding, before I went to see the doc, I used sick time, vacation time, worked short days. Amazing I kept my job. The first 5 days I could not get out of bed for more than a few minutes at a time lucky it was over a long weekend. Please use with caution, this latest noid Justin is using is for  moderate use only. I’ve never had such a feeling of not being able to stop. Plus it may just have been my body chemistry, BP meds, and sheer stupidity for putting myself in that position, But it was so cheap too… Then I stopped Kratom and had a much milder second withdrawal as I only did 5-10 G a day. Then the Citrolapam made me sick…again. Plus it made me unable to sleep and gave me mood swings like ultra-crabby and jumping at every sound and movement which is not like me at all.

Kanna sounds like it would have done the job for those last couple horrible days and spared me the additional time being sick in a different way. I’m giving myself 14 days before I even consider using Kava or Kratom again. I will not use anything everyday. I know I can do that with the two K’s and MJ. All of those are easy for me to be a weekend warrior with. FYI  Kratom did not do shit for the blend withdrawals other than help with sleep for short periods so I have no idea what is up with this particular noid, not like anything I’ve had before in terms of body reaction. So not an Opioid profile… never was big on those anyhow. Just say NO to SSRI’s… I think only 10% or so that get prescribed them really benefit. Way over-used.

If you read all this thanks for letting me get this off my chest. I have no one to blame but myself and a doctor I no longer see. JBMac, I’m with you buddy…  :bear: I’m doing AWESOME these days….