hey family

we’ve been trying to get pregnant for a while now, with assistance from a reproductive endocrinologist and fertility drugs.  I’ve suffered a miscarriage and many failed IUI (turkey baster method) attempts. My doctor called me in for a meeting, and told me that my chances of getting pregnant this way are very, very low, and he advised that IVF (implanting an already fertilized egg) may be the only other option for us. the problem with that, is it’s so fucking expensive, and we can’t afford it. Not even on a payment plan.  I’m absolutely devastated and it’s so hard to believe this is where we’ve ended up. 

*sigh*  I just wanted to vent…and let ya’ll know why I’ve been MIA so much.  When the going gets rough, I tend to retreat into myself and pull away from family and friends.  I know that’s not the best thing to do, but I have a difficult time discussing something so emotional and heartbreaking for me.

I hope everyone is doing well, and thanks for being a safe space for me to say these things. have a good night

GUC
xoxo